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Its time to slow down the pace of life

2011-02-28T21:29:00.008+08:00

God wants you to know that if you feel yourself floundering in the sea of life, try leaning back and floating. Let yourself be supported. Gaze into the beautiful sky and allow time for your spirit to be refreshed. Then when you are feeling stronger, simply choose a direction and start swimming.

I knew that life isn't simple,
Too many things that happened made me unable to breathe.
Everything were just too packed. All seems suffocating.
I really need to slow down and take a step back to relax.
Its time to take a break, but the time is not here yet.
I know that this day will come but not any sooner.
Hoping and longing for a breathtaker.
Sometimes, its just not the things that are making me die
But its the people around that is killing me.

Deep down, I know that GOD will be there for me.
Just that the feeling is so distant, like a stranger.
Maybe its because I'm like a lukewarm water towards GOD.
Maybe, its the passion to long for GOD has fade away.
It's time to slow down and rest.
Enjoying every moment of possiblity of tranquility given by GOD.
Nevertheless, I still do give thanks for everything that has happened.
I will treasure the love given by GOD and all those that love me.
May GOD bless you guys (:

A more promising plan

2010-04-12T15:58:00.004+08:00

God wants you to know that all is well. All is going according to plan. Trust that there is a bigger picture. Trust that life is unfolding as it should.

Father,

Thank you lord, for preparing everything nicely for me.
I know that even when things aren't going to plan
It's still part of the plan. Every twist and turns are planned
Lord, continue guiding through the plan
I know that there is something bigger behind this plan.
I am keen and willing to follow.
When the plans continue to follow, the picture keeps unfolding.
Lord, I'll hand everything on you and rely on your plans for me.

2010-04-09T22:48:00.002+08:00

God wants you to know that prayer is real only when done with your whole heart. Reserve the sound of your voice for other people. God hears only what's in your heart.

Lord,

You knows me better than anyone else.
Even myself. Which is something to me ashame of.
But, it's true that prayer need not mouthed out
It's all in the heart. The willingness to pray is the source.
Majority thinks that proclaiming in front of people
Means they are whole-hearted while those
Kept quiet in prayers were the unwilling ones.
And father you understand and know my heart.

To this all I can is to agree.
Thank you for being so understanding.
Goodnights god. See ya tomoro in church.

Wealth isn't just measured by something called money

2010-04-08T17:37:00.003+08:00

God wants you to know that letting go makes you wealthier. Wealth is never measured by what you have, but by what you can give away. You are rich with money when you can afford to donate. You are rich with love when you can give love freely. You are rich with God when you can behold your enemy with compassion.

Lord,

I finally understood what you meant by letting go.
Having money isn't everything.
Give is better than receive
Cuz' till the day we die, we can't bring the money with us.
Hatred cannot solve but just avoiding
Holding onto the past just shows that we still do not understand
the purpose of life and what is meant to forgive and forget
Letting go is a way to forgive and move on.
It will make life happier and more worth living.

I am a person that likes to hold onto the past.
Thinking back of the things that happened
People that have hurt me pass through
And was once part of my life.
The thing is, is it worth doing that
What benefits can it bring to us now and the future.
Even if it teaches a lesson, since it have already taught
We have already learnt then rememeber the lesson
But not the things that has happened

Father, I want to be wealthy in you and not in earth.
I want to be closer than I was in the past,
I want to learn and earn more and everything about you.
Guide and teach me to let go. I'll learn.

Believing is the way

2010-04-07T02:31:00.003+08:00

God wants you to know that there is no such thing as a problem without a divine gift hidden within it. You have these problems because you need the gifts they carry within.

Father,
Just like what Angie and Esther had shared with me
I really do not know whether those were my gifts
The gifts you gave it to me.
I always thought myself to be minute, a nobody
The ability to think more deeper than others
The ability to write and express every single emotions into the poem
The ability of leading and well liked by childrens
The ability of having creativity.
I thought all these were normal
Aren't they? Others have them too. Don't they?
I just don't know why they when Angie see these in me
She claims it to be my gifts when others also have the ability to do so too.

Nevertheless, thinking back to the words you have spoken
I still give thanks that I have all these abilities in me.
I do not really mind if they were special
Cuz when it is in me, I'll make good use of it.
What I really need to learn now
Is to appreciate what's in me and not mourn what I am lack of
All these abilities and gifts might seems normal
Or even something that no one really cares.
But since it is in my hands, I'll turn it into something
From a nothing to something is indeed something.

So father, help me through this period.
Build up my faith and confidence.
Tell me to my ears everyday that I am special
Special in your eyes.
Make me strong, and make good use of those gifts in me.
Thank you for be there even I wasn't aware.
God goodnights and sweet dreams. Thank you.

Let Go and Move On

2010-04-05T19:03:00.004+08:00

God wants you to know that it's time you let go. Yes, of course, you want to control so everything happens in just the way you want it. But at the end of the day, we control nothing, - it's all in God's hands, - has always been, and will always be. So, do what you can, and then let go, and let God handle the rest.

Father, today is a day that I come back to you.
This time, I'll stay and never wonder off again.
Time to time things happen when it want to
And not we want it to.
Whenever this happens, I will lost track
In almost everything on hand.
Cuz it isn't the way I planned.

Occasionally, this is also when miracle lies.
I believe that there are.
I admit that yes indeed I want everything
To happen the way I want it to be
And I know that it's very tiring.
So many times to the extend that I almost gave up

As like what you have tolda me now.
I will learn, and deep in me I knew
Always - That once you have tried your best
It's more than enough.
So Father,
I'll start learning to leave everything in your hands
Though I need to do my part in those things.
I will start to learn to let go and not cling
Clinging onto can be good and bad.
It could be being perserverance or plain stubborn
Teach me how to differentiate
Teach me and show me the way.

As the wind blows,
I feel the presence of touch
As the night arrives,
I feel the presence of peace
As the sun rises,
I feel the presence of hope
As the rain pours,
I feel the presence of nourishment
As praises are sung,
I felt his presence in me.

Adventuring Through The Wall of Heart

2009-09-28T02:48:00.003+08:00

God wants you to know that it's time you stopped hiding from life and said yes to the adventure of being alive. Enough of the routine already. Go on, have an adventure, do what you always wanted deep within your heart. Do what brings you alive and the universe will open doors where there were only walls.

Father,

I longed for freedom
A place where I am free to roam
A place where I am free to fly
The world is a place that's far too complicated
Filled with hatred blood and pains
Though it does contain love and cares
But why can't they just be in their place
Why are they so mixed up ?
I don't understand
Keeping inside me was agony
Trying extremely hard to differentiate
What is like and love
What is love and hate
Can't we just have one that just exist
Can't we let the good one stay ?

Coming back to the message
Indeed I hope for an outbreak in my life
Making it look better at least on this Earth
I wanted to be someone, someone that's awesome
Someone that's simple yet recognized by all
I need not be someone that's known by all
But there are people out there that feels my presence
I want to do something that makes me feel proud
Something that is always what I wanted
Something that is assured and ensured by others
My dream is to fly
Fly high up and travel around the world
Flying up high doesn't meant literally
Yet spiritually and emotions.
I want to feel what I want to
A sense of illusion that comes with peace.
No matter how I dream, how I hope
There will not be a day coming true
Cuz' this world is too polluted about the thoughts of wants
Emotions and fear are the walls that is keeping me down
Down from my dream
Drown in my tears that I've always stop
The Earth today is like a machine that makes people robots
Doing and repeating the same routine, a creative life without creativity
I want to truly fly; I want to truly dream
These walls are strong and high.
I do not have the courage just like the others
In the end, fate will just bring us to where be belonged
Dream is good but dream is just a dream
Fighting against will and dream
Try so hard to get over the wall
I just can't ; Face the truth might be better.
God, teach me the way to do and the way to walk.

The Main Focus that I Truly Want

2009-08-22T13:39:00.005+08:00

God wants you to know that the kingdom of God is within you.
You're chasing in the wrong field. What you are looking for is inside of you, not 'out there'. Take a few days off to become quiet and look within, and you will find it.

God,

I know that escaping from the right track is wrong
Being able to face it is the only way to solve problems
In you, it is where the true love and joy can be found
The love and joy the outside world has are all temporary
The status and glory that the world could give
They all cannot be brought into heaven
It's just a shame that I have neglected the meaning of life
Chasing for the money and making myself dead-beat
This is not what I or Father you truly wanted
Guide me back, reprimand me if needed
I've learnt my lessons and my focus
Given a second chance I'll give in my best
While giving in my best, I'll enjoy the journey
The process that brings me to my end

Take Control if it Cannot Leave

2009-08-14T09:27:00.004+08:00

God wants you to know that you can't rid the world of sorrow, but you can choose to live in joy.
Sorrow is with us not because we are bad at stopping it, but simply because it's part of being human. What matters is not whether good or bad things happen - both will, but your relationship to them. Just think back over the last 24 hours, - what had you taken hard that you could have taken lightly?

Father,

Living within sorrows is a matter of choice and will
Living within happiness is a matter of courage and mind
We have sorrows isn't not because we cannot stop it
It greatly depends on whether how we look at it as it is in us
It's part of our emotions where we cannot control
I couldn't remember what was it but I know that
I need to learn to cope with the sorrows that are roaring
I cannot let it leave me but I can control it
Not letting it affect my day
Maybe there are things that makes us feel sorrowful
Looking at them in a different way; it'll feel better.
Once again, enlightenment makes me feel fresher !

Judging the Blessings in Disguise

2009-08-13T10:07:00.004+08:00

God wants you to know that your only real sin is not seeing God in everything you see.
You think - this is good so it comes from God; this is bad so it comes from devil. Forgetting that it was God who created everything in the first place, and that all of God's creations are perfect. And it was the devil who made you think of good and bad, made you doubt God's perfection. Look around yourself right now to see through your judgments the Divine in every little thing around you.

Father,

I'm sorry. I didn't how to differentiate
In the world of temptations, sorrows, hatred
There are still forces that cover our paths and thoughts
Yet, I'm one of those that is like that
You have clearly told me in your words
Yet, once again, I tumble into the darkness
Every little thing exist for their purpose and reasons
Every little can cause great changes and effects to this world
Good and Bad things
Big and Small things
They happens for a reason
Eventually a purpose that they have accomplish
They might be lucky things about them
They might be blessings in disguise
Bad things isn't that bad afterall
Good things doesn't benefits us for life
Thank you for reminding me
That no matter what, everything is of your creation
Everything occurs by your will
For your will is good and its only how we look at it
Thank You.

Burn the Pain; Joy will Stay

2009-08-12T11:20:00.003+08:00

God wants you to know that to burn out the pain, just find a place filled with joy.
God created joy as a balm for pain. What are some places, who are some people filled with joy that you can rely on to ease your pain?

Lord,

At this moment of my life, I cannot find joy
I feel stress and lost, especially failure
Looking back, my life staying alone didn't have much purpose
Broken friendships, Relationships
Personal life, Spiritual life
Work, Studies
The meaning that lies within each place
I couldn't get hold of it
Pain is definite; I feel it
But I crave for joy.
Joy symbolizes the realistic of life
Lead me to the place where it burns my pain and leave me joy

The Hidden Reason

2009-08-11T11:26:00.002+08:00

God wants you to know that there are no accidents.

What you think of as accidents are simply your conversations with God that you haven't yet been able to understand. But take heart, all happens in God's will and every conversation has deep meaning for you.

Lord,

I believe in miracles
I believe there are miracles

Miracles = Accidents with reasons

I admit that I do question about accidents
I doubt the purpose for them to happen
I cannot accept that it happened
Today you have told me not to
And I will start learning
I will understand and believe
I will hold the trust for it as I have in you
The things we talked
The things I share with you
It happened for its reason
I know that you are in it
Your will controls everything
Nothing happen just like that
Even if one makes a decision
But totally go against your will
You can stop it from happening
I depends on what you want
So Father, I know that every conversation that we share
Happens for a reason and there is a hidden purpose for it

It Isn't Just Merely Words

2009-08-10T13:14:00.003+08:00

God wants you to know that to worship God you must go beyond words to speak with your heart.

You can mouth the words of a prayer all day long and just waste your time, unless you also speak with your heart. And to speak with your heart means to embody first. If you pray for love, be loving. If you pray for wealth, be generous. If you pray for health, practice health yourself. What is your favorite prayer? How can you begin to embody it?

Lord,

I understood your words for me today
You are reminding me that loving and worshiping you
Isn't just by words but by the heart
Words without heart and sincerity means nothing
Yet even limited vocabs are used but filled with heart
Is a total different thing again.
I have always been saying and promising
That I will love you but till now
They are just merely words
That's without heart and actions.
I know what to do, Father I will change with my heart
No more promises till I have done what I should be doing.
Thanks for reminding me once and again the purpose of love.

It's Time For A Rest.

2009-08-09T10:41:00.004+08:00

God wants you to know that you've been driving yourself too hard lately.
Sure, there is time to invest yourself fully into work, but there is equally important time for joyful resting. And for you, this time is now. What is the absolutely most wonderful little treat you can give yourself? Do it today.

Lord,

Thank You, afterall you are the who understands me
I don't know whether the decision I did is right or wrong
But I know that whatever decision I make comes with a consequence.
It depends greatly on whether may I able to take it
I do need rest seriously, its been tiring
Work, Study and sick. Even troublesome friends
Its time to sort things out and off
What are the wants, needs; things that should / shouldn't be done
Everything ought to be in place after today
No more excuses to go off anymore
Rest and sort everything to their positions
Is to take a longer journey with lesser obstacles.

How Can I start to Love ?

2009-08-07T10:45:00.008+08:00

God wants you to know that you've been skipping out on God's most important gift to man - love.

Love is the blood of the soul. God wants all beings to have healthy and strong souls, so God created a simple law to nourish the soul: the more you give love, the more you receive love. Remember all the beings you love - people, animals - that you haven't thought of lately. Do not wait anymore, reconnect with them today and express your love.

Lord,

Thank you for reminding me
Reminding me that love is not just taking
But on the other giving
It is when I give I will feel love
It is when I show I will get back twice
Love isn't just doing the talk
It's about doing it to others
I have skipped and missed out many
Cuz I just kept wanting to take
Not having intentions to give
It isn't right afterall
I will start learning to love
The real love it should be
I believe when in times to come
The love will be spread to the people around me
By me from the bottom
So that I know the true meaning of love.

The Love of Universe

2009-08-06T09:42:00.003+08:00

God wants you to know that He loves you.
Yes, God loves you very much and unconditionally. Like a mother loves her child, unconditionally. Even as she slaps her baby's hand to protect her from being burnt by a fire, her love infuses her whole being. So with God. God's love for you infuses the whole Universe.

Lord,

I know that you love me
I know that even when I do wrong
You have the whole universe in your hands
You have me, my life in your hands
You let me make my decisions in life
You let me know the purpose of life
When I walk the wrong way
You guide me back
I have nothing to say
Cuz your love for me is nondescript
Thank You is all I can say...

I.M.PERFECT

2009-08-05T12:08:00.003+08:00

God wants you to know that you are perfect as you are.
God doesn't create faulty life. No. Everything created by God is perfect, and so are you. So stop driving yourself mad with endless ways to improve, and just accept the glory of your being as is.

LORD,

You never fail to assure me
You never fail to guide me back
You never fail to encourage me
You never fail to accompany me

Am I still that perfect in your eyes
Am I still the little innocent in your eyes
I know that I am not
But you choose to look at me in a different way
You chose to give me chances
You chose to pat on my head
Telling me that, girl happy that you are back

I made you angry
I made you disappointed
I made you sad
I made you sigh
But, you chose to forgive me
God, I promise from now on
I will try my very best to live life
Living a life that glorifies your name
Living a life that will make you feel proud
Living a life that I will not regret anymore.

Thank You for taking away those imperfections
Thank You for giving in to me once and again
Thank You for making me know that I am your love
Thank You for everything that you have provided

Coming Back To Conscious

2009-08-04T14:23:00.002+08:00

God wants you to know that you've been missing out on delight that God has sent your way.
Think back over the last day, what could you have taken with delight that you just skipped over?

Lord,

I know that it's been long I have yet talked to you
I have yet to attend church
I have yet to pray to you
I have yet to do what I promise
I know that this 2 months
I have yet to experience you
I have yet to encounter your miracles
I have yet to do so many things with you
I have missed out so many things about you
Recently, I experience some stuffs
Things that makes me think and grow up
Now I know that the world is deceiving one
A world that is filled with lies
Including me, who is also part of it
There is no more as you sacrifice and people appreciates
There is no more cares that it used to be
There is no more understanding but only selfishness
There is no more love but themselves
So many things happening every minute

But what have I done?
Did I make the effort to change?
To change the people around me?
Or at least change myself ?
Or could I ask this....
What have I experience when the last day of my life come?
What did I do to experience you?
Are initiatives and efforts put in?
What have I done to in this life?
Have I fulfill everything that I planned?
Most importantly, Do I have left with any regrets?
Father, one more chance please
I will come back to you
I will not leave you once again because of humans
I will not commit the same thing because of this world
Your time belongs to you
So I will spend it with you
I will start loving you once again
Never and not going to leave anymore.

Believing Only You

2009-07-27T09:32:00.001+08:00

God wants you to know that it's your heart that knows who loves you, not your ears or eyes.
Listen to the words, and you can be fooled. Look at the actions, and you can be fooled. You are loved only when you feel loved. Who makes your heart soar now? Well, what are you waiting for?

Lord, I know that it has been a long time since I last talk
Talking my heart out to you is a way to destress
Lots of things happened recently
God, now whatever you have been telling me is all coming true
I dunnoe whether you want me to reflect on you tell me
Then you will tell me more of others
God, I dunnoe whether what I have decided is right
I dunnoe what will happen in the future
I just know that I will not regret anymore
I will start living my life
A life with meaning.
Guide me to a meaningful life
A life with no more regrets
A life with no more deceives
A life with a straight heart

LoVe

2009-07-18T19:41:00.003+08:00

God wants you to know that today is a big day for you.
Yes, today. Keep your eyes open for a message. It might come in a shape of a bird flying overhead, or a graffiti on a wall, or a phrase said by a passerby, or... Whatever shape it has, this message has been trying to reach you for years, and today is finally the day. Keep your senses open.

What will be the message
What is the word
I crave for it
I am asking it
Tell me more
Enlight my heart
Knock my head
With the words
Making me awake
What is it
That I have always been searching
Could I have forgotten as time pass
Or putting it into the deepest part
Where even myself couldn't find.

The Moment

2009-07-17T10:55:00.003+08:00

God wants you to know that you cannot wait anymore. The moment has finally come. You have no choice. You have to take that step now. Now. Not tomorrow, not in an hour, - Now! If anyone else is reading this, they would be confused. But not you. You know exactly what we mean. Do it. Now.

Father,

Are you referring to the relationship that I am having
Or are you referring to the work that I need to do for you
Or are you referring to other things in my life ?
After experiencing you, I know that you've been doing your work
On me, on my life and my thoughts
I know that I ought to do something but what is it ?
God I feel happy, too happy that I felt like crying
I got a message from my mum
God thank you for listening to my prayer
Thank you for doing the work within my dad
Thank you for allowing him to at least put down his pride
Putting it down and think for my mum this time
I am really too glad that I am out of words
Cuz God you are just truly amazing
I pray that God you will continue looking over me
Give and show me the way I go
Give me strength to face all things
Give me joy to face all obstacles
Give me courage to take every first step
Give me peace in doing everything
Give me you cuz you are the one providing.

Learning and Growing from Doubt

2009-07-16T09:41:00.002+08:00

God wants you to know that doubt is the greatest gift, - it's the space between two certainties.
Any change on its way from one place of stability to the next one, passes through a period of doubt. Your old perspective has to disintegrate, and doubt comes in for a visit - even if only for a moment, before the new perspective takes root. Doubt is your greatest gift, because from doubt you can go anywhere.

Father,

There are so many things that I want to tell you
My feelings, my emotions, my thoughts, my point of view
Many many things, so much that I didn't where to start
Okay firstly, its true that I always doubt
But until today after hearing you that I know one thing
That's doubting something isn't wrong
We have the right to doubt
It is doubt that makes us wanting to find out
Find out the ugly side hiding behind
Find out the truth that proves ones innocence
Find out the fact before jumping into conclusion
Find out whose the right and wrong
In the journey of life, we doubt
We grow in doubt, no literally but mentally
We experience from doubt; we learn from doubt
Afterall, God you are right that doubting can be a gift
Its a gift to experience, learn, and be observant
It is also true that doubts appear when decisions need to be made
When there is a change in point of view, doubts appear
When you want to start trusting, doubts appear
God, when doubts come ; I only pray that you will guide me
Not remove the doubt that lies in
But to guide me through the doubt
Let me learn and experience
God show me the way, teach me the word
Thank you Father !
Let me spend my day with joy and contentment
Give me strength to face all circumstances
I worship you forever and ever....

Let the Love flow

2009-07-15T23:33:00.007+08:00

God wants you to know that you can only give away what you already have inside yourself.
True giving happens when you are overflowing from the inside, and cannot help but share. When there is so much love within you that it has to flow to others or you would burst open. There is no thinking involved, no willpower in such sharing. It just flows out. If you have to force yourself to be kind, to love, to feel compassion, you've missed the first step of filling in your own Self with these emotions.

Father,

Its absolutely true,
I am tired of putting on a mask to face people
I am tired of putting on a mask to treat people
I am tired of putting on a mask to react situations
I am tired of putting on a mask to act in front of people
I want to treat people true heartedly
I want to face people truely
I want to react to my true feelings
I want to show my true self in front of people
I do not know why
Maybe I do not love myself enough
So I can only treat and react truely in front
Only before you and some others
I am tired as most of the time I am unable to
Not even in front of him
Every single time when we quarrel
I kept thinking, is it really my fault
Is that really me
A Libra person shouldn't be like that
A God-like person shouldn't be like this
A child of God shouldn't be like that
An independent shouldn't be like this
I am going to change
To compromise
To change my character
My everything
If I have changed and he still couldn't accept
I will say nothing but let go
Cuz staying together will make the hurt be more
I believe that one day
I can pour love over without hesitation
I can pour love over without any force
I can pour love over without willpower
I can feel kind; love and compassion
Cuz God's love with me will flow over me endlessly
God once again
Thank you for letting me learn again =)

Poundering Over and Round

2009-07-14T09:59:00.004+08:00

God wants you to know that it's time to STOP going through the motions of living, and START living.
Are you willing to do that now? Or are you going to wait until all life energy drains out of you and your loved ones who are trying to support you at this very moment? You were not born to follow rules and regulations. Living starts with dreaming. So dream, dream friend, and let dreams show you the path to your bliss.

Lord,

I am tired of this mundanity that continues in my life
I am sick of the mask that I put in front of people
I am tired of this society and things that are on going
I want to break loose from the trend
I want to break loose from the systematic life
I know that those who love me are getting tired soon
I feel like my energy are draining out already
Yet I cannot do anything
Or I dunnoe what to do
Or I am just merely giving excuses to escape
Escaping that urge that lies in me
Escaping that fear that is tryin' to stop me
Escaping from this world not wanting to face it
Escaping from the outcome after I break loose
God, after so many days
I know what you want to tell me
Courage is what I need
Faith is what I need
Facing the fear is what I need
Give me all please
I need them.... please
All I have now is only you....

Can you hear the shatters ?

2009-07-13T10:50:00.002+08:00

God wants you to know that every little part of you is magical. Yes, even the parts that hurt, even the ones that are feeling disease right now. It's alright to love what is in pain. More than alright, that's exactly where your love is needed the most. So why not touch that part that hurts and smile at it, at yourself through it, and whisper: ''I love you.''

God,

You are forever there to assure me when I am down
Its always true that thinking of the past hurts it pains
Things and people that are or used to be important to me
Family, Friends and Love
I cannot let go of the past
It always lingers through my mind
Scenes of memories and Scenes of hurts
Ever have I thought that I just keep them in my heart
Deep down, just not me
Putting up a mask to face this world
In my world, is my true self
A place where all my sorrows and hurts laid
Maybe its time to let go
Letting go of the things that I still cares
Letting go of the things that I still think of
Letting go of the feelings that I hide
Letting go of the feelings that I have kept
It isn't a simple thing to let go
I am not perfect afterall
Its tough to do it
Using love to cover the pain
Using love to forget the pain
Dying of pain
Reviving by love
Sound so simple
Yet so tough
Give me courage
Teach me how to love
Guide me ; Guide my life.....

Facing the Lion and Gaints of Fear

2009-07-12T12:03:00.007+08:00

God wants you to know that decision is only wishful thinking until you take that first irreversible step.
You can tell yourself that you have already decided, that nothing now can stop you, but if that step backwards is so much safer than step forwards, what will hold you true to your path when the going gets tough? Sometimes, the right thing to do is to take that first irreversible step, the one after which you cannot go back. And now, for you, is one of those times.

Lord,

Everything has been so true after I have experienced you,
You reads my mind, my heart and my everything
Sometimes, the decision that I have made wavers
Sometimes, when it comes to make a decision
I turns indecisive, I hate it totally
But, in the end I just cannot make up my mind
God, it is because I am timid
Is it because I do not have enough faith
Is it because I am not firm enough
Is it because I am too soft-hearted ?
Sometimes I will ask myself all these questions
But I just don't seems to get any answer from it
Many a times, when somethings are decided
I will back out in the very last minute
Is it because I am afraid to face the outcome?
Is it because I am unable to face the consequences?
I will always think a lot
Even when I have decided to do something
I will hesitate, I will step back
I exactly know the feeling of fear
The unknown sense of fear that remains silent
Silently like a lion targeting its prey
Finding the right time to attack
Attack the very critical area
It is also like the giants
Readily to crush you at any moment
Without giving you a second to take a breather
God, I pray to you
Let me stand strong and firm
Let me not hesitate and allow the fear to overcome me
Let me have the courage to make a irreversible step
A step no matter what, contains faith and trust in you
A step no matter what the outcomes is, will always be good
Bless my day of work today
Let me face the lion of fear in me and get hold of the victory !

What's your reaction ?

2009-07-12T11:50:00.003+08:00

Dear God,

Thank you for this little reminder
Many a times when things goes wrong
Many a times when things don't seems right
Many a times when things is not the way I want it to be
I questioned, I doubt
I blame, one sidedly
Haven't I have thought that is only the very little things
Little things that are just to test my faith
Little things that test my totality
Little things that test myself in you
Always and always
Humans see things in their own shoes
Looking at the picture at the perspective
Nevertheless, they neglect the bigger side of the situation
Nevertheless, jumping into conclusions based on what they see
Nevertheless, blaming you and others for the thing to happen
Have ever think for others
Okay, don't talk about thinking for others
What about ourselves?
The things that happen, how did we react?
Whats our reaction?
Disasters happen, test challenged
But all this are just the little part that happened
Without God, it might be far more serious
We yet to think that everything happens with a reason
And the reason is that we ought to know ourselves better
We ought to learn to have faith
We ought to learn have to face test and challenges
We ought to grow faith in you.
God, thank you for letting me reflect on something new today !

Standing at the centre of the World

2009-07-11T14:22:00.002+08:00

God wants you to know that when the sun rises, it rises for you.
Yes, for you. Just for you. Only for you. You are it, everything, the whole universe with all the billion galaxies and stars. The separateness you feel is only a mask you have put on to enjoy this human form. Under the mask, your shape is All. How far can you now feel your Self expand? To your parents?... to your love ones?... to your friend?... to a stranger on a street?... half way around the globe?

Dear God,
Thank you for assuring me once again.
Seriously without you, I do not know how to face the world
In you I found faith and confidence in life once again
You know what is going through in me
My worries and troubles you know them all
God, in front of you my mask just fall
In front of you, I am what I am
I need not hide my feelings and my thoughts
God at this very moment, I am worried for my mum
I know that the sun rises also just for her
I cannot do anything to help her but God,
What I can do now is to pray to you
And hand everything to you
For now I will place my faith and continue my life
Cuz' I know that everything is going to be fine
God bless me today
Let me not let things that will be settle by you not me
Affect my mood and affect others
Let me smile today off :)

Foundation and Learning

2009-07-10T09:32:00.003+08:00

God wants you to know that every relationship rests on three legs
Accepting, Supporting and Challenging.
That's really it, isn't it? You want your relationships to be grounded on accepting each other as you are. On supporting each other through the inevitable ups and downs. On challenging each other to become more, to grow, to flourish. Which one of these is the more difficult one for you, and how are you going to practice it in the next 24 hours?

Dear God, you are reading me just like a book.
You knows what I want and what I need at the moment
Its marvellous that you could understand how I felt
I know that God you are obviously talking to me
Telling me all the ways to solve my problems
You are also telling me that all I need to do is to rely on you
To believe and continue to have trust in you that you will do the work
To also let me know that you are a God that knows and solve everything
Thank you God, you have completely assured me
Completely make me put down myself and just believe in you
Completely allows me to believe and undeniable that you are great !
I am feeling this unknown weird contentment and happiness in me
It is like the great waves of the ocean filled and getting up the feel
I just feel Happy, that's it
God you now have got me completely !
Thank you for making things get better
Love you :)

Building up by bits

2009-07-09T09:47:00.004+08:00

God has an important purpose for you, and made everything possible for you to succeed.
That's not to say it's an easy purpose, or a convenient one. It might very well seem hard or even impossible, but it only looks that way. The truth is that one day you will look back and see how all the pieces fit together. And how your life has been a complete and utter success.

Dear God,
You are seriously talking to me, I feel so happy
Its a sense of contentment and a sense of security
Its like no matter how bad I feel, there is someone that cares for me
Someone that knows my everything.
I do not know whether I am doing now is right
All I know is that I need to have control on the things I do
Things and feelings got better
We are changing for the better and I hope that it can continue
Staying this way makes me feel better.
Coming back to the purpose of life
God, what is it that you have put in me?
What are the things that I have to go through and face
Before I know what is the purpose of life in me
Guide me through this period of time
A time of tough and indecisive times...
Thank you .

What am I ; What's in me?

2009-07-08T09:04:00.003+08:00

Find out who you are becoming find stories that move your heart.
Just like a seed has an image of the tree in it, so does your heart have an image of who you are becoming. Look for stories in movies and books that resonate in your heart, and you will find glimpses of your possible futures. What is your favorite story?

What is the story that can let me know what I am to be ?
What is the story that moulds and shapes me ?
After reading, I guess this will stay with me the whole day
Its true that I do not have a story as my guide
Its true that I am unsure of my future
Or in this case what I want to be
Be it in career; be it my purpose of life
Many questioning thoughts are surfacing right now
What can I do or What should I do
Just like yesterday, I quarrelled with Him again
Now I am starting to question
Since after that incident, we have been quarrelling
The number of times is increasing
So what is the purpose of our relationship
I do not how to handle it anymore
Like i am serious!
And the more of this happens
It has shown to me very clearly at this stage
That humans are just humans
They are selfish
They think for themselves
They cannot forgive what others do unto them
When they themselves are doing it to others
Even when apologies are said they do not feel like accepting it
They'll just ignore and continue venting their anger
And Only God that understands my sorrows
You are the only one who can forgive my sins and what I have done
Friends are around to console and I give thanks for that
But God you are the best listening ear to me
I have no fear in telling you everything like now
I have no fear that God you will turn away
Cuz' I know that God you love me
In return, I ought to learn to love you more
Maybe, it is just like what Angeline says
'Love the perfect one before the imperfect;
If you do not even know how to love someone who is perfect
Then how are you suppose to accept someone imperfect?'
Alrights, many things are poundering over
But God just take this thoughts that will affect me today
I am going to work
So I pray that God, give me strength and wisdom
Faith and confidence in my work
A clear mind during work
Putting customers in mind and nothing else except you
I know that the journey will be tough
I know that you will be there walking with me
Holding onto me if I am going to fall
Accompany me quietly when I need companion
Lending me a shoulder when I need to cry
Willingly listening to me when I need to rant
Thank you God, for all that you have done
You are greatly appreciated and remembered !
Bless my day with Joy and Love
Thank you God, you are the best !

Learning to Grow

2009-07-07T09:46:00.004+08:00

God demands the totality of your being.
That you invest all of yourself into celebrating the glory
and the preciousness of being alive right now,
no holding back and saving for later.

God, am I giving you myself way too little
I know that I ask a lot from you
But on the other hand, I am giving you nothing
Its a total disgrace that I am doing that
To someone that loves me so much
All I can do is to apologise and start changing myself for the better
To make you happy to see me grow
Things is getting better I guess
I want to thank you, God
I will not know what will continue to come by
But I believe and trust that in You
I will fear nothing and nothing I will fear
He is starting to get better
I also dunnoe when will he really forget
Everyday, I will ask you for my needs
Strength, Faith, Courage
To face all the challenges that are coming in my way
Give me perseverance for fasting too
I need you like badly God.

Falling apart

2009-07-06T23:12:00.003+08:00

Dear God,

After talking out my heart on how I felt; I really feel better
Though I know that its not the end and there are more to come
I pray to you for extra courage, faith and strength
Because I know that I cannot possibly do this on my own
I need you to help and guide me through
You have known me well and knew what will be coming through
This time it is a platform for me to learn and start anew
I have never encounter this before and unsure in handling it
I am tired, really tired.....
I am lost.... Helplessly like in the desert
Give me water
Give me strength
GOD give me the perseverance to withstand the hunger in me
I meant the physical hunger
I will not stop wanting spiritual hunger craving for you
But I want an end to my physical hunger that is stopping me to fast
I want to start fasting starting from now
Fasting for my sins and my perseverance !
Give me strength and faith that in you I can do it
In the upcoming 40 days I will rely on you for food
And it will definitely succeed !

2009-07-06T16:02:00.000+08:00

How I wish I live in Fairyland.....